Well, finally back on here after a long while. I was discouraged by the format of this site sometime last year, I think, but it looks like they have improved the mobile part at least.
Anyway, to update, I am still in NYC auditioning for theatre and working in the glamorous world of film and television as a background actor. I was inspired to start this blog again after creating my new actor website. And then I re-read some of my past posts from 2006/2007 and saw how positive I was back then...and I liked it better than the slightly jaded person I was becoming recently. I could tell I was getting bitter about not booking much theatre work since I arrived here in 2009. I started only to put my focus on finding the next background gig, because it was giving me an almost living wage. But then, I was starting to not be able to go to theatre auditions and started getting comfortable with settling in the background. It was fine. I was getting semi-steady work. I was paying my bills...sort of. But I just wasn't fulfilled with being a supporting role all the time.
I've had a little taste of being a little more featured, but it didn't dawn on me until I took a seminar with a casting agent, that there was something more. I realized that I do have potential. Everyone has potential to succeed in this business, but few work hard enough to do it. I knew I wasn't working hard at it, just making it by. Just hoping on pure luck, like in the past. But I knew in the back of my mind that if I would just go to that audition, instead of talking myself out of it the night or the morning before, and just get my butt out there that things would happen. Just keep going in and do a great job and one day someone will finally give me the opportunity to keep doing what I love the most...live theatre!
Sometimes, you just need to start the ball rolling yourself. I finally made the decision to watch the cash flow and stop eating out and going to Starbucks so much. Made a budget and kept to it, but always knowing that I could be flexible with it too. I started my taxes earlier this year. I took time off of background work to go to an theatre auditions. Been nailing it in my sessions with my vocal coach, and getting my confidence back in the audition room. And so finally, I am a part of, first a reading, and an upcoming workshop production of a new musical. I won't question how I got the role (as I usually do), I will just say, it was meant to be mine at the moment. Someone may take over, if it goes beyond and headed to Broadway, but, right now it's all mine!
And about another project, it is always great to do another reading for a good friend who is an up and coming writer. A really good one, too. I may not be rich right now, sometimes times are tight, but I'm not starving, I'm not homeless, and I'm still pursuing what I love to do...and not a corporate drone stuck in a cubicle in an office.
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